Your Smile Said, My Smile Said

"When you're down and out, there seems no hope at all,
But if you just believe, there's no way we can fall."
(We Are The World - USA for Africa)

I must've gotten a hug,

because I was so happy, then...

I had strength, I had power...

I had.. hope.

I could smile within my mental tears.

...euphoria..

A feeling I'd never had, and there it was before me.

Your smile said, "I am proud."

My smile said, "I am happy."

Your eyes told me, "I knew you could do it."

My eyes told you... Something you did not quite agree with.

My eyes told you, "I did not do well!"

Your smile spoke again, and said to me, "You are still afraid, even now."

Your eyes said to me, "Don't lose yourself in bitter thoughts of imaginary judgement."

My smile, then a frown, turned back upside-down.

My eyes, filled with tears... of quite a scare of imaginary fears.

My smile, so said, "You are right.  I do fear."

My eyes, so said, "What difficult thing you ask of me."

"Don't let your fears get to you." Your smile grew weary. "They will not help you through."

"...Difficult?"  Your eyes stared me down.  "You're one of much sensitivity."

Your eyes told my story,

piercing into the depths of my soul...

Raising stuff in all my glory,

and making this little problem whole.

Your eyes spoke in a gentle voice.

"You're always afraid that others will hurt you.

So, you've set high standards for yourself,

that no one can reach."

Your smile intervened, and spoke in a loving voice.

"If you let me into your heart,

your humble, shaking heart,

to rid your fear, to you, I think I can teach."

My eyes had tears fill them up again,

like buckets, every now and then.

My smile was humble, like you said,

and began to stop listening to the voices in my head.

Your smile was proud of me.

Your eyes were tearing graciously.

My smile was there, and from you to me...

My eyes suddenly became sleepy.

Your eyes had me hypnotized.

Your smile sang a little song goodnight.

All my fears had gone away,

and I knew I never have to face them another day.

My eyes slumped shut slowly,

and my smile thanked you happily.

©LJ 

Some Day Back In July 2012

(Not the complete poem, but the main body of it.)