Flashing Colors

I lie awake 

at night,

thinking of things

that may happen 

while I'm sleeping.

What if suddenly,

I were to awaken

to flashes 

of orange 

and yellow 

and blue?

What have I done?

Watching these hearts 

break,

I can never take back 

what I have done.

You all are gone, 

and I am here...

as the rain 

washes away 

what remains 

of the flashing colors.

What if 

the night before,

I had said things?

I had done things?

I regret in my waking

and fear in my sleeping.

I don't mean to hurt anyone.

I'm sorry if I did, though.

Surrounded.

What am I to do

but engulf myself

in the flashing colors as well?

20 & 22 January 2014

©LJ