I Don't Remember

I don't remember

when feelings ceased to exist.

I don't remember 

my emotions.

I don't remember

ever falling to my knees,

weakened by oppression.

I don't remember

my feelings fading,

head first,

peeling away like a sticker

from a destroyed coloring book.

I don't remember

when I isolated myself,

alone,

left feeling unloved.

I don't remember

being pushed away,

do this, do that,

"don't do this to me",

all because I felt

an overwhelming amount

of emotions

I never knew I mustered.

I don't remember

the nightmare

of so long ago

when I wore the mask of death.

I don't remember

the worry I caused,

nor the anger that raged in their veins.

I don't remember 

feeling a single thing.

I don't remember

feeling.

I don't remember

fighting.

I don't remember

thinking.

I don't remember...

at all.

But they got here somehow;

I just don't remember.

©LJ

21 June 2014